I wanted to bring you all a different post on my blog today. Sometimes I have thoughts that I just feel like I need to share and it is too much for a bookstagram story.
I am struggling as a reader. More than that, I am struggling as an adult, wife, teacher, daughter, and friend.
Guys, I know people think teachers have it made and I am not one to complain about my job because yes, I chose this career knowing it is thankless at times. I also chose this career because the time off is the greatest perk and I love having opportunities to travel or even just have a staycation.
This year is especially difficult because I am in the middle of a complicated and time consuming process to complete National Board Certification. Again, I chose to do this, but I am doing it because it is the only opportunity for me to earn a little more money each year, other than going back to school for another degree.
So on top of teaching, which consumes 99% of my life Monday-Friday (ask my husband-school is ALL I talk about when I am home), I am now also spending my weekends working on boards. I spent at least four to five hours of my Saturday yesterday working on boards. And when I am not working on boards, I still need to be a wife and help keep up chores around the house. I need to visit my parents and my in-laws. I need to see my friends. And I need to read some books because I am a bookstagrammer and book blogger. There simply is not enough time for reading lately. And when I do have some down time lately, I don’t even have the desire to pick up a book because I am so tired. I could be reading right now, but I am watching a movie on Netflix that I have seen at least five times and writing this blog.
I am really struggling with balancing everything right now. I will probably have to take a mental health day in the next few weeks, but I am really having to talk myself in to taking that day because I feel bad when I don’t go to school and teach my students. Yes, you read that right. I will feel guilty when I request that day off because that is one of 180 days that I have with these kids and I am selfishly thinking of taking one of those days for myself.
So all of this is to say, “I’m sorry,” to my followers. When I started bookstagram in May, I was reading an average of 8-10 books per month. I think I read four books in August, and I have only finished one book in September. The reading slump is real, and I see how easy it is to fall out of the habit of reading. I have not been sticking to my posting schedule on my blog and I definitely haven’t been as active on bookstgram lately, but I am doing all I can most days.
This week, I am going to make a conscious effort to at least try listening to an audiobook on the way to school, at the gym, and on the way home. That is at least an hour of my day that I could be listening to a book. Some people think audiobooks do not count as reading, but I disagree. But that would be for another discussion on another day!
So these are the things on my mind today. I am in my feelings bit because the “Sunday scaries” are creeping up on me and I feel overwhelmed about the week ahead.
I challenge everyone to reach out to someone this week with a positive, encouraging comment. You don’t know how much encouragement someone may need sometimes, so be the ray of sunshine in someone’s day! I hope everyone has a great week, and I promise to be a better bookstagrammer and blogger in the coming weeks! If there are any specific posts, tags, discussion, lists, etc. that you would like to see on my blog, please let me know in the comments below! I always want to hear from my followers about my content!